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++累了++

我累了，真的累了。
最近所发生的一切，让我喘不过气来。
一切不如从前，
就连我们的感情也疏远了。
难道我们的友谊就只是这样吗？
难道就没有永远的友情？

也许我错了，
我们之间存有的友情可能就真得那么肤浅，
不是我曾经想象的那种。
不知是我敏感还是什么，
但总觉得你们有什么事情瞒着我。
我放弃。
再也没有那么多心情去想那么多了。

我一个人的力量是那么微小，
根本无法改变任何事情，
算了，再也不想想那么多了，
就让一切继续发生下去吧，
你们要做什么也与我无关了。

流再多的眼泪也没用，
因为我知道一切都不可能回到从前了。

Tuesday, May 09, 2006

HIM>

HE's frenly
HE's a nice person to tok to
i feel comfortable toking to HIM
doesn't seem tat there's anything i want to hide from HIM
HE's caring in a way
i likt TOKING to HIM
but i DUN like HIM
i HATE misunderstandings

guess the only thing i can do is to refrain from toking to him... avoiding seems the only way for me to stop all the misunderstandings tat u guys might have...

# posted by memories4eva | 11:35 PM | 0 comments

Saturday, May 06, 2006

i choose to avoid...>

its been a really really really long time since i came... tot i wouldn't be posting anything here anymore... but i guess i have to... juz to let everything out...(decided to do so after reading jo n py's blog...) everything tat i kept within me since dunno when...

sometimes i really tink tat the 2 toks we had seems to be quite... meaningless? i mean... we tried... we tried to calm down, i tried not to flare up... we explained matters clearly... n wanted to solve problems... we did everything tat we could juz hoping tat we can put a full stop to this problem... but... i guess it din help.. wif tat 'attitude' of hers... i tink... its impossible...

putting the blame on others is definitely WRONG when u r the one at fault... crying all the time, even before anyone starts toking, acting pity... is also not the right thing to do... when there's a problem, u r supposed to realise it, n try to solve it, instead of crying n pushing the blame at others...

i admit tat i can be really bad-tempered at times... n... nobody... n i really mean no one... will eva want to c me flare up... its a totaly diff side of me... sth my frens have neva eva see b4... i always appear to be the quieter one, the so called weaker one... cuz i tend to not say anything, juz keep it within me... cuz i noe tat i'm not gd at toking... even if i say anything it wun help... so... i'd rather keep quiet than flare up...

but, this matter is really pushing me to the limits... the more we try to settle it, the more we tok abt it, the more irritated n angrier i get.... i really dun wish to flare up one day... this time... i'm really gonna choose the 'wrong' way... tats to... avoid... maybe tats the bez solution for us now... ni bu fan4 wo, wo bu fan4 ni...

after the most recent tok, we were given a so-called deadline... which is to be frens again from next wk... but i guess... its really difficult.. all i can say is... wo zuo bu dao... maybe one day if we really c a significant change in her, a change tat everyone will be happy wif, we can... but for now... i guess not... n even if there's really a change in the future, i noe tat everything will not be like b4 again... we can neva to go back to how we were last time... juz hope tat time will heal everything ba...

# posted by memories4eva | 11:55 PM | 0 comments

Monday, December 26, 2005

i'm back to update le... neva update for abt a wk liao.. lolx~ too busy? hahaz... considered la... is like... one whole wk.. how many hrs i slp ar? i tink... less than 40 lor... =)

i went to send 5566 off on mon!! hehez... but the situation wasn't as good as wat happened the previous time... or rather.. to me, its quite bad... so bad tat i juz feel like screaming out to all the fans to stop pushing... hehez... cuz i hate squeezing... then we went biking... we cycled from east coast to... marina square... then stop there to rest... damn tiring... n they still want go orchard... i tink i will die if they really go there la... lolx~ slept quite late tat day... ard... 3-4 am? heez...

then tues ar... nth much happen la... only at nite... went k wif my cousins... =) its nice to go there at nite... not many pple... sang till midnite... then go newton eat... heez... neva really slp tat day... then went to meet half the class n ms claire the next day for dim sum... ms claire treat de... heez... its nice!! n tat joanne ar... everytime nag at us say muz eat properly... then... she herself... keep dropping her food on the table... lolx~

argh... lazy to report wat i did for the wk la... i dun tink i have to also...hehez... most imptly is... sat... xmas eve... met up wif some of my classmates... then... later in the nite... went to meet huei n val... ok...we met in the afternoon, then went shiqi hse to play... then later in the evening, we went marina bay for dinner... its horrible!! i guess this will be the firz n last time i'll go there? lolx~ the food is nice la... but ar, its scary wif the oil splattering ard... *ouch!!* cuz of tat, i couldn't stop running away la... argh!! then in the end, i'm like so bad... cuz the rest had to cook n take the food for me... so.. i'm like.. eating only? i noe tats bad... tats y i say i wun go there again... =)

then we went down to the merlion park!! i swear its nice there at nite... the place, the breeze, everything there la... heez... took a lot of pics... i'm in luv wif tat place!!! actually wanted huei they all to come down instead of i go meet them de... but they din want to la... so... i left the place reluctantly at ard11... so as to be able to rush down to meet huei they all b4 xmas.... =) ya... then we played cards, n went mac... lolx~ then we went marina square at ard... 3 ar... to play pool... but i din play la... cuz i'm like half-dead ready? i din slp the previous nite also lei... ya... then we went back the next morn... slept till abt 11, then i go shopping!! =) wif my mum, sis n cousinns... bought one set of clothes for new yr le... 2 more sets to go...

ya... tats all la... nth much ready... i swear i'm gonna go back to merlion park another day... at nite!! =D

# posted by memories4eva | 5:07 PM | 0 comments

Sunday, December 18, 2005

high!!>

i'm now at khee hoon's hse doing ipra!! so... apparently, i'm slacking now... if not i wun be here updating... hahaz... i'm so happy now... no... or rather, i'm still in the high mood? lolx~

i went 5566 concert yesterday!! so high lor... i enjoyed the whole concert man... hahaz... it was great!! somemore, i actually went to stand wif huei... n... she's sitting at the 3rd row... the view we get is damn nice! but the most impt thing is... they sang live! sth i din expect them to do... not tat i look down on them or wat la... but they seldom sing live de ma.. so i tot, this time would be no exception... but they proved me wrong...

then there's this 4 lucky fans who actually got to go up on stage n sing shou hou wif them... i wonder how they actually pick this 4 fans out... i envy them la... hahaz... i'm dreaming again... =) but time passes very fast when u r enjoying urself... soon... the concert came to an end... tats like damn fast la... but if u actually counted, the concert actually lasted for abt 3+ hrs le... ha...

then there's 7f special appearance... they sang 3 songs... but so sad... neva sing my fav song, say u love me... but nvm... the rest also not bad... i luv them man... shucks! i'm now going crazy over them le... madness... oh... n we celebrated shaowei's bdae too... but its a short one la... actually i was tinking y not drag the concert a bit longer, then we can count down to his bdae... lolx~ but its impossible la... it will be too late liao le... heez...

haiz... they going back to tw tml le... n... we dunno when we will be able to c them again here in sg... definitely muz go send them off tml... lolx~ ok... need to go back to do ipra liao le... shall end here... =)

# posted by memories4eva | 1:41 PM | 0 comments

Monday, December 12, 2005

i'm getting so sick n tired wif life now... y is everything going so so so wrong for me? this juz isn't wat i want... can't we juz go back to the past? i really miss the happy times tat we used to share la... but all's gone... i tot maybe one day we can juz be back to how we were, but i guess i'm wrong... its no use... its really time i say bye to this friendship of ours...

i will neva forget the time when we used to share all our secrets, troubles, n even happiness... n neva eva will i forget u being by my side at the darkest moments of my life... u were there to console me, u helped me get over it... but now... wats happening? juz cuz of a stupid untrue 'rumour' u r treating me this way... i used to tink tat u understand me the most... i din explain much to u is cuz i tot tat u noe me well enough n will not have any response to those stupid things... i mean, its juz another rumour, but i guess i'm really wrong...

i might be the cause of this broken frenship, i not sure.... but this is definitely not the ending tat i wanted... if this really have to happen, then i can only say, wish u all the best for the future ahead... all the memories willb be kept in my heart... neva forgotten...

# posted by memories4eva | 3:07 PM | 0 comments

Saturday, December 10, 2005

i've changed my blogskin~ =) no more 5566... but! still can c them on the pix at the side... hehez... oh... one thing... can anyone pls tell me if there's anything wrong wif my eyes? i was reading this article online when i tink i saw tat 5566's most ex n cheap tix sold out, n, for the $128 one, they added another 200 tix!! izzit my eyes playing tricks on me or izzit the truth? i somehow juz dun believe it lor...

is not tat i have no confidence in them la... but given the no of pple tat turned up for their handshake session n auto session, i tot there will be like very very little pple going lor... n seriously, their popularity in s'pore really dropping like mad la... its quite obvious la.. juz by looking at their past auto sessions n those now... is like, a big diff lor... last time, they have to sign real fast so tat everyone gets their albums signed, n all those used to be their record breaking auto sessions.. but now, i tink they can juz take their own sweet tiem to sign n still have more than enough time left lor.. tats how big the difference is... tats y i tot tat their no of tix sold would be pathetic.. not like mayday n stefanie sun... wif their most ex tix already sold out...

oh... toking abt stefanie sun... her most ex concert tix is not like any other concerts, $148. its $198!! is like wif the sistic $2 charge, the tix would be 200 bucks ready... n its sold out!! i couldn't believe my eyes when i firz saw the ad... but tats the truth... she's juz so popular... haiz... i doubt 5566 can eva be like her la...

another boring day spent at home... everyone's not free to go out... most of them having their mid term tests coming up... n some r overseas having their hols... the most horrible is still val n chen... chen is going away for a mth.. n val, din even buy her return tix... so... tat means... dunno when she's coming back... lolx~

a lot of things happened recently... dun really have the mood to do a lot of stuffs... n.. the stupid thing is... i can even drift off while doing my econs test.. i tink tats wat contributed to me having a marginal fail n have to retake!! sad man... i felt so bad lor... i mean... its only the firz 3 topics lei... i'm supposed to like at least pass the test one lor... but i neva... haiz... juz hope the same thing wun happen for my retest...

i never thought that i'd see this day
i never thought that i'd feel this way
i'm left with emptiness
i wish i know how it could be
that we were once so open and free
you were like my elder brother
yet everything went so wrong
what hurts the most, i now know
what i lost, and i'm alone
to face a challenge life has sent
and not a moment with you i've spent
as time flew, the air grew thick
i saw our friendship fading, and my heart went dead
the day had arrived
when it was time to say goodbye
now i sit alone, reminiscing the past i had blown

# posted by memories4eva | 9:22 PM | 0 comments

Monday, November 28, 2005

28 nov... another day for me... its supposed to be my bdae la... lolx~ but... any diff? nope... bdae is juz another day.. ever since... p3? yep... somewhere there... but today... still not bad la... firz time after p2, there's a bdae song sung for me... thx peeps... thx for tat song n the card wif the wishes... =) tat made my bdae... nth much... oh ya... n.. thx to joanne, poh ying, joannah, khee hoon, fit, alvin n elf... thx for tat present... its nice! =D

oh... besides tat.. got another bdae present from my mum... hehez... tat is... i got my hair dyed n highlighted... she was saying tat its an ex present... lolx~ but i still got it... =) hmm... in fact, nth much happened la... no celebrations, no nth... heez... quite a boring day though.. lectures n lessons... all make me feel like slping... maybe cuz of the slpless night i had ba... oh ya... 19 more days to 5566 concert only... wee... i can't wait man... hahaz....

# posted by memories4eva | 7:23 PM | 0 comments

-mich-